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What are you thankful for?

It always seems to me that thanksgiving tends to be a glossed over holiday. Now I don’t mean that it’s not a big deal, it is totally a big deal but it tends to become transformed into the day of the almighty turkey instead of what’ it’s supposed to be.

Thanksgiving

Thanks giving.

It seems like a lot of people have forgotten how to do that, and it makes me sad to say that especially a lot of folks in my age group it seems. Even when dealing with people day to day, a lot of folks seem almost bewildered when I thank them for doing whatever service it is they’re doing. I can’t speak about others or how they were raised but it seems to me like things are in a sad state when folks seem legitimately confused upon being thanked. Is everyone just to busy to be grateful?

It’s very very easy to focus on the things going wrong in one’s life, blame others, blame your uncontrollable circumstances, and so on. But there’s so much to be thankful for when you think about it.

Of course there’s always going to be folks with worse or better circumstances than you, I’m not saying that if you have an issue it’s illegitimate or anything like that. Yeah there’s the standards, you folks reading this can be thankful for having internet access whether it’s at home with a roof over your head or a public space of somekind. That’s something to be thankful for at least.

Everyone’s got problems but it’s important to step outside of our limited scope of what we don’t have, what we want or need, and to take a glance at everything we do have.

Right now I’m honestly grateful for all of the bad times too, I can be thankful for those as well because of the lessons I’ve learned and all my good and bad experiences have helped to formulate me into the person I am today. And while I may not be exactly happy with that, I’m thankful that I have the opportunities and ability to change them if I choose to, and that I have the ability to choose. I’m thankful that I live in an area that while it has a long way to go on the scale of accepting others, is not actively trying to eliminate me in any number of ways.

I’m thankful for my health, because as poor as it is I am alive and sometimes that’s enough to be happy about.

So on the actual day of thanksgiving my mom and sister woke up early, cleaning and cooking, and they left me in my passed out state on my bed. I had hardly been able to sleep at all from sheer pre-feast excitement haha, and I’m thankful that they did let me sleep xD. At about noon my brother and his girlfriend arrived and we ate heartily!

My mother roasted the turkey, made stuffing and gravy and mashed potatoes, candied yams, greenbean casserole, and corn pudding. Every year her recipes vary a little bit as she doesn’t write things down and can’t remember what she did the year before haha, but this was decidedly the best year ever. My family and I do have a lot of issues, and often times it feels like we’re very disconnected, but this holiday was different.

My mother says that God gave us a miracle and gave us our family back haha. It really does feel like that though, there was a feeling in our house of fun and peace and love that I haven’t felt with all of us in well over a decade.

And so for the first time that I can remember, I can honestly, earnestly say that I am thankful for my family.

 

I don’t know what happened or how, but this is certainly becoming one of my most cherished memories.

How was your thanksgiving? Any miracles on your end? What are you thankful for?
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Motivation is a Bitch

Now, I’m sure to just about all of you this is anything but news, and to me it’s not news either it’s just one of those annoyances constantly tripping me up when I’m not paying attention. Much like the cat’s water bowl that they enjoy sliding into my path in the middle of the night, but I digress. What usually happens to me is that I’ll get a burst of “oh my god I need to do something yes let’s do something! Let’s get something done~!” And it’ll last a little while, I”ll journal every day for X days and then something happens and I’m kicked out of routine before it’s a real habit.

A good example is the exercise stuff I had going. I was walking just about every day, but then my sister moved in at the end of october with my niece (just turned 2 years old) and let’s just say things got a little hectic and a lot exhausting. Then November arrives and I started NaNoWriMo which decidedly was eating up my time and that was also going well until about the 4th when I got really sick alluva sudden and ended up in the ER and checked into the hospital up until Saturday night. That’s Saturday the 10th, I was in there for a whole week or so.

So here I am at home, itching to get stuff done again. Excuses excuses are easy to find, and mine tend to be pretty good when I want them to be, so good that they could be actual reasons as opposed to excuses. Let’s go back to the walking thing shall we? I’m back home now, I’m not sick and I could probably make a few walking rounds in the park or something. The fact of the matter is that while I mentally want to (to a degree) my whole body is sore, and still recovering from the medications being pumped into me while I was in the hospital. I’d say that’s a pretty good reason not to go out exercising wouldn’t you?  But I also think that maybe if I push myself I can get stronger up to par faster, but at the same time there’s the risk of just burning myself out by not giving myself time to rest so my ‘plan’ is to just let myself recoup until my next doctor appointment later this week and see what they say.

But see, I’ve still got this problem of wanting to do something. Most of my crafts are on hold due to the little one buzzing her way around the apartment all the time (I think my sister would kill me for even thinking of pulling out a carving knife in her presence, let alone a woodburning pen, or such), and I’ve got all this seeming motivation and nothing to do with it!

A lot of it has to do with the fact that there are little grabby hands (and paws) about so I’m apprehensive about pulling out the needles or yarn or blades or any of that and I do need one piece of equipment before I get some herbalism brewing. Once again because of the little grabby hands I’d rather pulverize my herbs in a mortar+pestle than chop them with a knife and I can’t quite afford that bit of kitchenware yet.

Of course the main complaint I have is that all my motivation comes at the most inconvenient times! Why couldn’t I be motivated before they arrived or so on and some such. It’s really just bothersome haha. So I’m left in the mean time until they can go back home trying to find things to do to feel accomplished without really making any messes or putting little extremities at risk.

Oh motivation, you fickle thing, come back when there’s some space on the kitchen table for me to work will ya?!

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Simple Stitched Books!

So, my mother (who I am currently staying with), is part of a certain support group for cancer survivors and their families. It’s a sort of small group for a very specific kind of cancer/tumor that I had when I was young. But since many a few families are in our area, they decided to have a picnic for this group! Once it started getting planned though, things quickly snowballed so now we’ve got a whole lot of people coming from out of state even! So, my mother decided to put together little giftbags/goodie bags for everyone who was going to attend.

About 3 weeks ago, I attended a class/event thing at my local library and learned out to make very simple booklets. So, of course, with this new found skill I was tasked to make a booklet for each giftbag (15) for the picnic, rapidly approaching.

Luckily I was able to get a lot of the supplies I would need for this project, for my birthday at the end of July. I knew I wanted to make journals but I wasn’t planning on making so many little booklets so soon, but either way I consider myself pretty lucky that I got all that I did. So for this project I’m using the following items:

Those are all things I got on my birthday haha. I promptly cut myself with the Z series blade and it bled quite a bit (I haven’t cut myself with an xacto in 10 fucking years until that day =___=) so be careful! The paper trimmer has been INVALUABLE, swear to god it’s fantastic. So right now I’m cutting up a bunch of standard 8.5×11 sheets of computer paper into smaller 5×4 sheets with the trimmer (oh god just thinking of using scissors on this is painful).  Oh, here’s the supplies I’m also using for the booklets:

So here’s a couple photos of all the supplies before and after production.

All of the supplies laid out. The smaller ones are the cut versions of the big pages.

The beaded spine of the completed booklet.

The completed booklet

The pages of the completed booklet fanned out.

I made each book with two signatures(multiple sheets folded and nested into each other to become the pages of a book) and 16 total pages. Due to the construction they aren’t the most sturdy things in the world but I have no doubt they’ll hold up well and be lovely little souvenirs. :3

Have you dabbled in bookmaking? Have you ever hand-made gifts or goodie bag
items? Questions? Comments? Suggestions?

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Getting Settled In

Well, I’m safely in California and have already started having a good time and getting to work! This week I saw Brave (That new disney Pixar film that there’s been a shitton of hype about) It was really good, thoroughly enjoyable though it did feel a bit short imho.  I saw that with my brother early in the morning at like 8:35 or so and was super surprised by how many little kids there were in the theater even though it was so early!

Then we went out to lunch and I got back to the house a little after 1.  At 2:30 my mother drove us out to the aquarium to see my sister and niece and we had a nice time and had dinner and stuff but I was TIRED let me tell you @__@

When I was hanging out with my brother i found out a few interesting tidbits for when I get to crafting, his girlfriend has a large garden and I’m allowed to help myself to pretty much anything but the food from it (flowers, weeds, tree blossoms, bird-pecked strawberries, etc.) so that’s kind of exciting for me! It means I don’t have to start from scratch which is fantastic.

I also saw Abraham Lincoln: Vampire Hunter with him and his girlfriend. That was really good too and i really enjoyed it haha. Yesterday or so my brother brought me some plant material to work with Dandelion flowers (just the heads/flowers… i don’t think he knows how these things work XDD; I have to admit I”m tempted to make wine or dye with them or something instead though…) and some mint, and lastly, parsley.

Parsley! I have a ton of dried parsley i have no idea what to do with! I mean, I looked around online and I can’t find anything to use it for! I mean I could make anything with it btu what would it be good for? From what I read a tincture of it would be pretty worthless as you could just as well eat the bloody things… and that would probably at least taste better. My sister told me to make some spray cleaner like parsley plus. BUT that stuff isn’t… well… it’s not the PARSLEY that cleans! the parsley is just the garnish fancy smell! It’s actually some kind of coconut surfactant(detergent) that actually does the cleaning part! Looking around as I’ve done it’s mostly used in addition to other herbs to make them smell nicer. so I really don’t know what to do with it. I’m half debating whether or not just to save it for some incense but I don’t know if it’s good for that or not! Not to mention there can also be the issue of magical uses if I do make incense, or anything else really… But then…

My bestest witchbro Jasie gave me this quote by Cat Yronwode (which she said, despite it’s source, is a perfect quote).  “PARSLEY is an herb of mixed meanings. Of course we all know it is employed in cooking, generally as a garnish, but as to its magical uses, there is almost no agreement. When a common garden or grocery store herb like this carries such widely diversified symbolism, the wise root worker may suspect that it is not very strong for any particular use, but just happens to be handy and easy to come by. In other words, in magic, as in food preparation, Parsley may be primarily a garnish.”

So… yeah… I’m kind of stumped there… But if anyone’s got any ideas on how to use this parsley (not cooking) I may be exceedingly nice and send you a free sample of whatever I make with it~! (Yeah, you want to help now, don’t you~?) 

But in other plans I”m probably just going to make some different dandelion tincture and some mint balm. Also one thing I”m trying to figure out is that, in process, what’s the difference between hand balm and lip balm? seriously? I mean I guess it would all come down to consistency but that can be changed easily by how much beeswax is added amirite? I guess that’s something to think about before I make it =3= hrm.

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Busy Busy Busy

Guess what I’ve been!  Well, for the past… however long it’s been I’ve been going through some stuff and preparing for travel! In april at some point I think or maybe early may (idk time gets hazy) my girlfriend became my ex which threw all my life plans at that time pretty much topsy-turvey. I guess it’s my own fault getting too invested too quickly or something I guess. I don’t know. In any case long story short being  that she was done, and so its over.  We’re still pretty amiable I suppose, obviously we don’t talk as much as we used to. I am no longer moving up to her city to go to her school, in fact right now i’m in process of a big move.

The original plan was to stay with my grandmother until like august and then go up to my now-ex’s town and school etc. Instead I moved my ass out of there as soon as possible (pain, nothing to look forward to, no real friends there, etc.) and came back home to michigan for a little while. The first few days or whatever i saw my best friend EVERY DAY. She broke up with her bf for various reasons which has caused me to think about my ex for a while now again, and for the past week or so I’ve been sick =3=. Tonsil infection or some nonsense. I should be well enough to hang with people again tomorrow but it’s cut a lot of time out of a very short break before I go a moving again!

You see on June 20th I head out to california to see my mother, sister (+niece) and brother! i don’t have an awful lot for friends out there either, at least not any that seem interested in seeing me anymore, BUT I will have close family, good food, and time to craft and learn and work and all that good stuff. In any case the plan now is to go there, work on everything i can for at least 6 months or so (ideally a year) while saving up as much money as possible to come back to Michigan and get a Car and possibly housing.

SADLY that means for the next… 6-months to a year the magic will be in short supply as I have packed it all away due to the cali families nosiness +intolerance but I’ll have plenty of gardening/crafting time and such. Which reminds me, due to my early leaving I planted what few things i could but it looked like none of it was doing well anyways so i kind of failed my grandmother in that respect =3=. I have made some Tincture and Salve that I have yet to label but when I do I will link you guys to my etsy store and all that when the time comes. I don’t have enough (imho) to start selling yet though. I also have some other projects coming up and all that but everything will have to wait until after I get to cali.

Which reminds me… I have to cut down on my luggage… ugh.

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